Mirror - Laura Cooke

I look at you and you spit in my face
I know I could have done better but
All you can say is that I’m a disgrace.

Your words cut me like a knife
They penetrate deep into my heart
There’s got to be more to life
Than this misery I feel now.

You say pull it together
I try to defend myself but
This tight cord you hold me with will never sever.

I stare deeper into your eyes
Trying to find a slither of hope
Buts what’s the use, its all lies
There’s no way back now.

It’s not my fault, leave me alone
You punch me…hard
I groan.

The tears burn my cheeks
You laugh
My body is so rotten it reeks
Of stale bitterness and hate.

I inhale deeply but I choke
You’re smothering me
What are you trying to provoke?

I try to stand tall
You want me to give in, lose the fight
You throw a weight on me, on my mind, and I fall
I concertina down to nothing.

Who is this person,
That is determined to make me give up?

The more I look the more I see
It’s so clear now!
This person I’m fighting is me.

Well you’ve heard it said before
We are all our worst enemy